Calgary

So I am in Calgary for about five days this week. Mainly for two reasons:
1. To see my Grandma
2. To see my mom

My grandma is in the hospital right now, she's had a stroke and she's not ever going to get out of bed again. She also isn't coherent very much anymore. She will talk and stuff but you can't understand her and she doesn't make much sense.
It was HARD seeing her. It was awful. I might joke and stuff but really I can't deal with shit like that. She's so hopeless and in the exact state she never wanted to be in. Its sad, its really, really sad.
I never want to be in that state.

But after seeing her we went to my uncles house and had a bland dinner. Then through the texting I talked to Chris and he said he would go on msn. Or that he wanted too. Well he's at a party right now and the only good part of my day hasn't happened. I was really looking forward to it, because I miss him so much. But whatever, I hope he has a good time at his party and I'll just sit here doing homework.
It hurts getting your hopes up and then not getting anything.